Sabishikute

Wednesday, 19 December 2012
15:54 PM

i'm confused,when i first had this feeling i always think that i have a little chance. But now that thought is slowly slipping away , i don't know for sure is that my will or against my will. it's just to hard! when i think back all this times, read my previous posts... i realized, i really felt so happy with my feelings. my friends were right, i really did treasure that feeling so much. i always felt so happy everyday, i always force myself to wake up early and go to school early just to see that person for a little while longer, i always try to keep my grades as high as possible, try to look pretty, do my best in practice, always think about that person every time. those were kinda a precious memory :)

but now that person changed, i don't know what happened. it started around 1 month ago, when that person started to be naughty. and i mean that very naughty. first that person didn't do much, but days past and that person started to be more naughty and arrogant. the whole class started to hate that person. my feelings started to slowly fade away. TT_TT

 now i start to think again, should i really stop this feeling of mine that i tresured so much since i first felt it? i think i shouldn't.but i think again, should i really keep it? who knows there's a new love out there waiting for me? a new happy feeling?