Monday, 22 October 2012
16:27 PM
Watashi wa hito o suki.. Watashi no kurasu kara no kōsu no shōnen.. >////> even though i don't want to admit it.. and sono otoko wa.. kirei dayo ^//.//^) /slaped since watashi sono otoko wo suki da (?) i love the song "sayonara memories" by my fav band Supercell. i love the lyrics.. 2 that i love are "sore kara no mainichi wa totemo tanoshikutte dakedo onaji kurai ni tsurakattanda" and "ima no mama sayonara shitakunai no". i don't want to say that watashi wa suki... cuz' my shukyo doesn't allow me to. i don't blame it though. it's alright. since 2 weeks ago the guys and girls from my class start to tease me with his name... it started when in the last subject of school.. if i'm not wrong it was wednesday... they say that sono otoka wa atashi no kotoga suki dayo.. i don't believe it. but syo*-kun's face was kinda like blushing.. i realized it fast but didn't want to believe it. i blushed furiously when i saw syo-kun was also blushing. those girls really were like what the called *coughphpjjkcough* -///-)' after that i started to think.. "what if syo-kun does?" i always shake that thought away.. though i really want syo-kun to feel that way.. watashi no kimochi wa... ai wa kimochi.. i'm glad i have it. as i said.. "sore kara no mainichi wa totemo tanoshikute dakedo onaji kurai ni tsurakattanda" it really is.. everytime school ends i say "ima no mama sayonara shitakunai no". since i have this kimochi.. i force myself to study hard, sleep and wake up early.. go to school early.. syo-kun always go to school early.. everyday syo always have a tired face.. i always laugh it out a little to myself.. we don't always talk much.. and he always talks to ritsu.. one of my new best friends in my new school... i always see them talking to each other freely.. and then i think to myself "i can't do that.. it's hard to bury kono no kimochi", it's kinda pessimist i know, but what can i do? i really can never bury it. even though i can, i can't bury all of it. these days i think kare ni wa already likes someone.. one of my friends maybe? or one of the senpaitachi? kare ni wa.. really get's along well with everyone.. so i don't really know. "kare ni wa doesn't get along with me like that, is it me or syo? i think it's me" is what i always whisper to myself everytime i see syo get along with everyone, i envy him because of that. he's really likable to, it make's me really envoius but also suki kare ni. syo's feelings about watashi? wakarannai yo... even though i want to know, i know i shouldn't know... i want syo to like watashi, but i always say "dame da!" i shouldn't try. what i should try is.. talk to syo normally.. like watashi don't have any kimochi.. it's hard but.. Watashi wa nani ga o susume suru iguasu nakya.. *sigh*. "Suki deshita" chisaku tsubuyaita. kyou mo.. suki dayo syo-kun <3 ^///^)
explanations : syo*=what i call kare ni
SORRY IF MY JAPANESE IS BAD!
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