Sabishikute

Wednesday, 19 December 2012
15:54 PM

i'm confused,when i first had this feeling i always think that i have a little chance. But now that thought is slowly slipping away , i don't know for sure is that my will or against my will. it's just to hard! when i think back all this times, read my previous posts... i realized, i really felt so happy with my feelings. my friends were right, i really did treasure that feeling so much. i always felt so happy everyday, i always force myself to wake up early and go to school early just to see that person for a little while longer, i always try to keep my grades as high as possible, try to look pretty, do my best in practice, always think about that person every time. those were kinda a precious memory :)

but now that person changed, i don't know what happened. it started around 1 month ago, when that person started to be naughty. and i mean that very naughty. first that person didn't do much, but days past and that person started to be more naughty and arrogant. the whole class started to hate that person. my feelings started to slowly fade away. TT_TT

 now i start to think again, should i really stop this feeling of mine that i tresured so much since i first felt it? i think i shouldn't.but i think again, should i really keep it? who knows there's a new love out there waiting for me? a new happy feeling?

First post after a LONG while

hey guys... tadaima~ sdh lma ak gak posting ya? ada banyak yg mw kuposting hari ini. dozo~

Monday, 22 October 2012
16:27 PM

Watashi wa hito o suki.. Watashi no kurasu kara no kōsu no shōnen.. >////> even though i don't want to admit it.. and sono otoko wa.. kirei dayo ^//.//^) /slaped since watashi sono otoko wo suki da (?) i love the song "sayonara memories" by my fav band Supercell. i love the lyrics.. 2 that i love are "sore kara no mainichi wa totemo tanoshikutte dakedo onaji kurai ni tsurakattanda" and "ima no mama sayonara shitakunai no". i don't want to say that watashi wa suki... cuz' my shukyo doesn't allow me to. i don't blame it though. it's alright. since 2 weeks ago the guys and girls from my class start to tease me with his name... it started when in the last subject of school.. if i'm not wrong it was wednesday... they say that sono otoka wa atashi no kotoga suki dayo.. i don't believe it. but syo*-kun's face was kinda like blushing.. i realized it fast but didn't want to believe it. i blushed furiously when i saw syo-kun was also blushing. those girls really were like what the called *coughphpjjkcough* -///-)' after that i started to think.. "what if syo-kun does?" i always shake that thought away.. though i really want syo-kun to feel that way.. watashi no kimochi wa... ai wa kimochi.. i'm glad i have it. as i said.. "sore kara no mainichi wa totemo tanoshikute dakedo onaji kurai ni tsurakattanda" it really is.. everytime school ends i say "ima no mama sayonara shitakunai no". since i have this kimochi.. i force myself to study hard, sleep and wake up early.. go to school early.. syo-kun always go to school early.. everyday syo always have a tired face.. i always laugh it out a little to myself.. we don't always talk much.. and he always talks to ritsu.. one of my new best friends in my new school... i always see them talking to each other freely.. and then i think to myself "i can't do that.. it's hard to bury kono no kimochi", it's kinda pessimist i know, but what can i do? i really can never bury it. even though i can, i can't bury all of it. these days i think kare ni wa already likes someone.. one of my friends maybe? or one of the senpaitachi? kare ni wa.. really get's along well with everyone.. so i don't really know. "kare ni wa doesn't get along with  me like that, is it me or syo? i think it's me" is what i always whisper to myself everytime i see syo get along with everyone, i envy him because of that. he's really likable to, it make's me really envoius but also suki kare ni. syo's feelings about watashi? wakarannai yo... even though i want to know, i know i shouldn't know... i want syo to like watashi, but i always say "dame da!" i shouldn't try. what i should try is.. talk to syo normally.. like watashi don't have any kimochi.. it's hard but.. Watashi wa nani ga o susume suru iguasu nakya.. *sigh*. "Suki deshita"  chisaku tsubuyaita. kyou mo.. suki dayo syo-kun <3 ^///^)

explanations : syo*=what i call kare ni

SORRY IF MY JAPANESE IS BAD!

Thursday, 13 September 2012

hy, mulai sekarang aku menggunakan bahasa indo untuk nulis jurnal (lagi malas mikir b.ingnya/PLAK) hari ini ak nulis jurnal hari kamis (kemarin)

Kamis, 13 September 2012

paginya "same old same old" gk da yg brubah, pas di sekolah.. juga sama. tapi waktu pulangan makan di *cough* ketemu 2 temen lama waktu SD dan 2 adik kelas (SD). aku sama temenku yg dari SD itu ngomong2 "school life" di SMP sekarang, ternyata teman2ku yang masuk ke SMP yang sama berubah... "teman2 dari SD yg masuk ke SMP yang sama-sama aku juga brubah"kataku, "berubah ke sisi yang lebih *cough*" (( sebenarnya begitupun *cough*)). menurutku masa SMP beda dengan masa SD.. ada yang ke sisi yang lebih buruk daripada SD dan ada yang ke sisi yang lebih baik daripada SD. kalau aku.. gak tau berubah ke sisi yang mana, mungkin sama mungkin beda. hanya sedikit yang berbeda dari masa aku SD dengan masa SMPku sekarang. perubahanku dihitung perubahan besar/kecil aku pun tak tahu pun, yang pasti semuanya berubah (saat negara api menyerang) #watde. setelah ketemu temenku aku kembali ke sekolah karena ibuku ada rapat orang tua murid di sekolah tentang tahun pelajaran baru. sambil nuggu rapatnya selesai aku sama teman2ku di SMP main di lapangan sekolah. laki2nya main bola, beberapa perempuan berkumpul seperti biasa dan aku dan kedua temanku main2 di lapangan seperti anak SD (kyknya gak move on nih/plakdor ) setelah main dalam arti kecapekan kita duduk di bawah pohon depan ruang laboratorium komputer. kegiatan masing2, dunia masing2, aku gambar laki2nya lagi main bola (gak gampang, lumayan susah karena mereka bergerak terus) temenku yang satu dengerin lagu Linkin Park yang satunya lagi dengerin lagu2 High School Musical ( <3)

TO BE CONTINUED

Wednesday, 12 September 2012 post

hey guys.. Tadaima! ;D so.. i'm going to write about yesterday activities today ^^

Wednesday, 12 September 2012

start or the day.. was a little good. i was hoping that today would be better then yesterday ^^)' and thank god my wish came true! a whole day was kinda good, but there was some thing that really make me anxious -.-)' want to know? stay tuned! #watde /SLAP

okay, first subject of the day is biology, and let me tell you? it wasn't a really good start -w-)b when the teacher came in the class she said "okay, test today! close your books and open you test papers!" my friends and i said "WHAT THE!? TEST!? WHAT TEST!?" in our minds all together in the same time. we were like looking in to each others faces.. and i'm telling you our faces wasn't pretty. the teacher used dictation to read the test questions. all of my friends were still looking in to each others faces each time they have a chance like when the teacher stopped reading for about.. 10 seconds -w-)\ when the teacher was done reading out the questions all of my friends were STILL looking into each others faces it was kinda funny though. but i was still taken back by the words "TEST NOW" my friends were saying to each other (in small voices) "psst! hey! say to the teacher that we don't have biology test today! we would be in biiig trouble if the teacher were to be mad at us because of bad scores!" i heard it and my friends were saying the same thing to me <--- Vice class leader i rejected like 4 times.. and then in the 5th time i finally stood up for me and my class and said "um.. mrs.*cough* do we really have tests today? because teacher never said that we do have tests today" in a kinda.. awkward voice..(?) and then the test was CANCELED! didn't read it yet? let me type it again C-A-N-C-E-L-E-D! XDD/SLAP but.... the bad part is we have to do a HARDER biology test next week QAQ)"" but i thought.... at least i wouldn't get a bad score on biology.. =A=) BTW the teacher was playing one of my fav old western songs "hero" by Mariah Carey .w.)b i sang it and don't care if my friends were to hear it, if i like the song i would sing it. i was kinda pissed though when my friend made fun of color guard >A<) i chased after him around the school grounds and in the same time my friend(boy) was passing by... it wasn't pretty when he was passing by... (my friend who made fun of color guard was a boy) my friend who was passing by teased my and said "don't chase after him.. just confess instead! just accept him!" and i said "WHAT DID YOU SAY!?" in a very... *cough* voice -w-) and then cause of that my friends teased me with the name of the boy who i chased.... so sadistic!! TTATT)

First Post! (after awhile/SLAP)

hey guys! this is my first post after the last time i was on here XD sorry for the long off >_<)" soo... as i say this little blog of mine will be my journal about what i did ^^)v so i'm going to start this journal blog!

Tuesday, 11 September 2012

When i was going to the teacher's office, i ran into a little elementary school girl, she was still in her first grade. i saw her location tag on her uniform... and guess what? she's from my old school, i was smiling all by myself when i realized it XDD and then when i was browsing the net with my friend after school i met with one of the otaku editors that i know from social medias in the net, her name is *cough* (hehe sorry secret ^^) i met her face to face for the first time! we introduced our selves (just names though) but didn't get to chit chat cuz' of Marching band practice was starting =_=)' poor me...(9QAQ)9 and i tell you it wasn't an introduction i was hoping for =.=)' when the practices start i was pretty happy cause now i finally met the person i know from the soc medias in real life ^w^) BTW  i'm a member of the colour guard section in the marching band group of my school. when i was practicing a technique called "Drop Spin" it was perfect! (in my mind) X/D i was so happy i could cry ~(QvQ~) why did i feel that? cause i've been experiencing EPIC FAIL when i practiced that technique /(TvT)\ when i was OTW home i saw my old friend *cough* she's a girl now!/SLAP >w<)/ but then when i got home.... my back is killing me inside!!! (?) (/QAQ)/

my intro

konichiwa minna! how are you today? i'm an otaku anime from indonesia. there's not much i want to say so. bye for now ^^"

About me the otaku!

Hi minna!!!!!!!!!!! aku suka banget Anime!!!!!!!!! untuk para otaku follow aku ya! Anime yang aku suka itu :

• Blue Dragon
• Gakuen Arisu
• Inazuma Eleven
• Kirarin Revolution
• Kuroshitsuji I/II(Black Butler I/II)
• Milky Holmes
• Myself Yourself
• Naruto / Naruto Shippuden
• Tokyo Mew Mew
• Twin princess of wonder planet
• Vocaloid